have you ever noticed that circles have no openings? but they are the quitissential shape that is used as an opening but in and of themselves there is no opening to a circle. . . Wasted. . . , it's just reflection of 4 years of wasted life. . . Forgotten unattainable friendships lack of depth missed opportunity BUT no tears wasted. . . How?. . .wasted. . . to seek is to find, but seeking doesn't mean you always find really, just one? No memories, or traditions, or love. . . too much school. .. too much work. . .not enough time. . .always busy but doing what? . . .unfulfillment perfection is out of reach lots of alone time. . .lots and lots of alone time. . .enough alone time emptiness what seems to be unanswered prayer laughter in one room, but not in the other. . .go figure! tired. . I'm so tired Same story, different day. I don't think utopia exists! gotta be cooler. . .more content. . .get things together. . .yeah! proactiveness = a crock--it just leads to empty time involving insecure conversation--good advice but crappy reality I thought this is what was supposed to happen, but why, why has nothing changed?? Will, it's such a funny thing. Good job you--way to be--you get an A+ life--*pat on the back* Why is that? I know it's sin, but how come, why not? Why is it just here? Why is it different there? or there? relationship--next aisle please do this and you will get this. . .. nope. . . i want it so badly. . .but it just keeps getting farther and farther away. . .help! don't be self-centered, GREAT, another thing I can't do right--let's try being misson focused--good job another failure!--Let's try, THAT focus--YES--nope, another chalked up failure--oh, i got this one--more of that, yeah, if I can get just more of that it will work, all will fall into place----nope, no time--but why? Time's a wasting---I know, it always has. Gonna be a 3rd shift grocery stocker (like putting them on the aisles) for the rest of my life--never knowing what it's really like to get to experience it, just see it and get to see others experience it--what a crappy life? How do you fix it? Service with a smile please-- I hate circles! | 
